Ponderings From A Woman Who Thinks Too Much

2011-07-08T07:49:00.000-07:00

It's the small wonders in life, that remind me of of the magic all around us.

2011-04-30T12:34:00.001-07:00

At this time of year, I am reminded that what has slowed down and grown dormant,
rejuvenates.
Plants sprout from seed, cut back rose bushes flourish with new growth and the dry, brownish grass is green once more.
Life cycles.
Not just in the seasons, but in the cycles of the soul.

2011-01-25T13:45:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I've put anything up here.
Winter tends to slow me down.
I'm feeling a bit rejuvenated since it is about 8 weeks until Spring arrives.
In the meantime, I wish on Sister Moon.

2010-10-10T08:28:00.000-07:00

Lady Autumn and her beautiful colors have arrived.
The air is crisp, and smells of plants going to ground.
Leaves have begun to gently fall from the trees.
The squirrels have brown snouts as they busily bury treasures for later.
Night falls early, a time for candles and light within.

2010-09-30T05:21:00.000-07:00

The rain pours down today.
We creep along slowly in our cars,
and huddle under umbrellas as we go from place to place.
The dryness and warmth of home is
comforting, as we close our doors upon the steady downpour.

2010-06-22T05:24:00.001-07:00

Roses are a symbol of hope.
Roses are a symbol of love.
Roses are a symbol of faith.

2010-05-06T10:47:00.000-07:00

In Memory Of The Man Who Captured My Heart
Dan Lamoureux
March 11, 1960 - May 2, 2010

See You In Another Lifetime Honey

2010-04-11T04:14:00.002-07:00

Spring is my favorite season.
It is the time of year that I am the most peaceful.

2010-03-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

Happy Easter everyone!!

2010-03-20T08:11:00.000-07:00

Spring is FINALLY here.
It's been a long, cold, snowy, sad winter.
I am just reveling in the sunshine and warm temperatures.
Here are some beauties that are going in the ground later today.
Welcome Lady Spring!

2010-02-10T08:30:00.000-08:00

Somewhere, people are having a normal day.
They are going to work and school.
They are doing their grocery shopping.
They might even be taking a walk.
Not here.
Here, the whole world is shut down due to snow.
Thirty inches over the weekend and fifteen more falling as I write this.
The Federal Government has been shut down for three days.
That is unheard of in this part of the country.
So we huddle inside our homes.
We pray that we don't lose our electricity.
And we take turns shoveling, and shoveling and shoveling.
I am so ready for Spring.

2010-01-27T18:24:00.001-08:00

Sometimes dealing with a loss,
dealing with death,
makes you feel very far away from the rest of the world.
You seem very removed from things.
People go on, living their lives and doing their things.
And there you are, perched somewhere different,
aware of the hole that has been left in your life,
and not at all sure how you are going to fill it.
And then you notice the pink sky of the morning,
and take a crisp, cool breath,
and realize that somehow...
you will survive.
And then you will thrive again.

2010-01-04T04:58:00.000-08:00

Sunset on your last day with us.
I didn't know that when I took the picture.
Strange.
You will be missed Scott.
Most of all, by our boy, who loved you with all of his golden heart.
He and I will always share our happy memories of you.
Watch out for him, from that special place where you are now.
Beannacht mo chara.

2009-12-24T07:16:00.001-08:00

From my hearth, to yours,
wishing you a very Merry Christmas,
and blessings, health and abundance in the New Year.

What Life Looks Like In My World Today...

2009-12-20T11:40:00.000-08:00

2009-12-10T10:13:00.000-08:00

I've decided to switch to photo blogging for a while.
I fool around with photography as a hobby, and thought I would post some of my pictures here.
Pink clouds in our winter sky, at sunset.

2008-06-20T15:52:00.000-07:00

Been away, haven't  seen you in a while.
How've you been?
Have you changed your style
and do you think we've grown up differently?  
Don't seem the same
Seems you've lost your feel for me

So let's leave it alone,  'cause we can't see eye to eye.
There ain't no good guys,  there ain't no bad guys.
There's only you and me and we just disagree.
Ooo - ooo - ooohoo     oh - oh - o-whoa

I'm going back to a place that's far away.   How bout you?
Have you got a place to stay?   Why should I care?
When I'm just trying to get along    We were friends
But now it's the end of our love song...

So let's leave it alone,  'cause we can't see eye to eye.
There ain't no good guys,  there ain't no bad guys.
There's only you and me and we just disagree.
Ooo - ooo - ooohoo     oh - oh - o-whoa

~Dave Mason

A Young Boy

2008-06-18T17:15:00.000-07:00

I saw young boy while I was out for my walk tonight.
He had a short crop of hair, lightly blond, and he was riding his bike furiously.
He reminded me of my step-son, that I do not know.
The step-son who is being kept from me, for reasons that I do not understand.
I wondered what it would be like to talk to that young boy, who is so much like my
husband.
I wondered what it would be like to have a relationship with him, and his sister.
I had good thoughts about those two young ones.
And I dreamed of a time that I can finally know my husband's children.
Maybe someday, when their mother gets tired of being so angry.
Maybe someday, when my husband starts sharing things about them with me.
Maybe someday.
Because I would love to get to know those two kids, who are such a big part of my husband's heart.

2008-06-14T04:19:00.001-07:00

Her hair was black, with a light spray of silver threads weaving through it.
The elderly woman sat on a scooter for the handicapped, in the lobby of McDonald's.
She spoke in a happy voice with the manager, of the importance of teaching
young people how to do things correctly.
She smiled at everyone she saw, including me.
It was a warm smile, that conveyed serenity.
I purchased my coffee and went out to my car.
Thunderheads were billowing in the sky, and lightening flashed from afar.
The woman came out of McDonald's, stopped her scooter, and looked up.
I saw no concern on her face that she might not return home before the storm.
Instead, she smiled, let out a big WHOO-HOO, and raced her scooter out into the parking
lot, in order to get a better view of the show in the sky.
It is in the moments when I am truly paying attention that I get my greatest gifts.

The Wee Robin And I

2008-06-08T04:22:00.000-07:00

Last spring, I was fortunate enough to follow the nesting of some robins in a tree that is next to the building where I work.
I first noticed the nest when I was out walking.
Each day I watched for signs of life.
Sure enough, one day there were small heads peering out.
I watched as the mother urged them out of the nest, and as they figured out how to live life on the ground and in the air.
This spring, I was happy to see the robins return.
I would like to think that it was the same group that were born there last year.
I have read that robins do that, return to where they were born to nest their young.
This year, I was nursing a toe injury, so I was not able to walk by the tree as much.
But I did see one tiny head pop up one day.
The next thing I knew, the babies were on the ground.
With their tufted feathers and awkward movement.
It is amazing how quickly they learn to hop and fly.
One morning, there was one small baby robin sitting beneath a tree.
He sat there in that same spot for hours.
Each time I took a break and went outside, there he was.
For a moment, I thought he might be injured.
Upon close inspection (and he let me) he seemed fine.
He was just sitting there enjoying the world.
I watched him, and found a smile in his simplicity.
There was nothing more important for him than to just sit there and
take in his surroundings.
After a few hours had gone by, one of his "nest mates" came along and they scampered off together.
It was nice to get a chance to bond with that small bird's serene simplicity.

Intuition

2008-05-23T05:01:00.000-07:00

Intuition is an interesting thing.
Mostly because it is indefinable.
There is no concrete explanation to give someone on how
you just "know" something, that has yet to be proven in fact.
People who are "logic based" disregard intuition.
In their way of seeing things, there must be "proof" for
something to be real.
And yet in many cases, something is known long
before any tangible proof arises.
Intuition is feared the most by those with something to hide.
Because they don't want someone "seeing" what they think they have hidden.
Intuition goes by many names.
Insight, sixth sense, second sight.
People who are intuitive have often been branded as
witches or undesirables.
But really, they are just those who have their
spiritual finger on a pulse that other people can't sense.

Mindfulness

2008-04-18T02:51:00.001-07:00

I've been reading a great deal about mindfulness lately.
And lo and behold, I was presented a lesson.
I stubbed one of my little toes.
How is that a lesson in mindfulness, you ask?
Well, it took me a few days to figure that out.
I am still a slow learner, here in Earth School.
Having an injury teaches you to be mindful of movement.
Lest you bang that injured area once again.
And it occurred to me that had I been mindful of movement
in the first place, this might never have happened.
I am often multi-tasking.
Doing laundry, while carrying on a conversation, while fixing my breakfast, etc.
And as I add each "task" I am less mindful of the other tasks I am involved with.
So I'm wondering if the lack of mindfulness of movement is what results in our
stubbed toes, jammed fingers and banged elbows.
And I'm thinking this might just be a lesson from The Universe that I need to slow
down and enjoy the moment more.
Morning ramblings over coffee.
Good day to you.

2008-03-26T06:14:00.000-07:00

There are times in life when you have to go it alone.
Times when friends and even those who love you the most,
can't be there for you.
That makes for slow going,
because a heavy load is always easier to carry with some help.
And dealing with something all by yourself,
can be harder that what you are actually dealing with.
This can be met with sadness and frustration,
or acceptance.
Making peace with your "aloneness" can give you a
sense of ease.
Acknowledging that this road is one you walk all by yourself
is a step toward acceptance.
And once you get to the end of that road, and you will,
you can take pride that you had to courage to go it solo.

Turning It Over

2008-03-18T16:07:00.000-07:00

"Father, into your hands, I commend my spirit".
That is what Jesus said, just before he died on the cross.
A rather dark thought, but I think there was a lighter message in it.
It's about giving up what we cannot control.
The final thing we can't control is death.
But it would behoove us to get better about turning things over long before we reach that point.
Our spirits often become dark and hard to deal with,
when we cling to that which we have no control over.
They can also become lighter, when we give to our Higher Power,
the things He is better at fixing.
When something feels too heavy to carry,
maybe we aren't supposed to be carrying it in the first place.

2008-03-13T02:11:00.000-07:00

We sail through the vastness that is the world,
in a tiny boat that is our own.
Sometimes,
others float near,
to lend us a bit of themselves.
And then they float away.
Our constant,
is the sun...
that rises and sets on our horizon.
It is our source of light and
our sense of direction.
And while we seek comfort from the company of others,
we sail on,
in the knowledge that our true
comfort can only come from within.

2008-03-11T11:04:00.000-07:00

Spring has begun it's graceful approach.
Things are getting greener, the chill is slowly leaving the air.
The morning serenade of the birds is back.
It is a time for rebirth, new beginnings.
There is a sense of hope at this time of year,
as we watch Nature come back to life.
Our spirits are better, we are outside more, there is more light.

The Real Meaning of Friendship

2008-03-01T07:44:00.000-08:00

The concept of being a friend involves consistency and availability.
Friends are loyal.
They are there for you when you are down,
and when you have cause for celebration.
They give you "emotional band-aids" when you need them,
and something funny when you're blue.
Mostly, they are there...
always there...
when you need them.
Not "too busy" or
"in a funk" or
"cave dwelling".
The true gift of friendship is that when your world comes tumbling down,
you know your friends will be there for you.
They are your emotional support system,
your life line,
when you go adrift.
It often takes a large, emotional event in your life,
to sort out who your friends are,
and who your friends are not.

Thoughts Become Things

2008-02-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

In the story of "Peter Pan", happy thoughts make the children fly.
A symbolic presentation of the power of positive thinking.
Think you are going to have a good day, and you will.
Think you are going to have a bad day, and you will.
There is amazing force in the power of thought.
Few of us have learned to discipline our thoughts.
They are random, sketchy, flitting here and there.
Powerful thought comes from streamlining and fine
tuning our thought process.
Mental exercise is as important as physical exercise
What is your happy thought?
Will you fly today?